Do we know what we have/are looking for?
…thinking, as I have ample time at this juncture … That perhaps our desire to be known, is directly reflected in how we are or are not able or willing to share ourselves, our internal world, mental workings. Such vulnerability requires either courage,foolishness or loneliness.
Then…once we share…we are confronted with objective and experiential evidence, of the ability or willingness of those we’ve shared with, as to whether or not others truly desire to know us or were only looking at us as a commodity of consumption.
These thoughts make me desire to inquire of myself if I’ve been a vulture or a provider of sun, light, and gentle breezes. I know what I endeavor toward being now, sun, rain and breezes, but do I have the courage to look backwards? I think I must if I’m to do better for myself and others. Isn’t there a line from a song that says, “the greatest thing you’ll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return. “. I also read from another author, “if you want guarantees, you don’t really want love.” As thou she were intimating that What we want when we want security is that we want a contract with a warranty, not love.
So…if a guarantee is equal to security/contract…we know why people marry under a contract.
But if…love is not equal to security? Then we are trying to secure and unsecurable/ uninsurable “asset” via a contract or law.
And as human nature is seemingly determined to violate laws once we realize we are under one even If we don’t want to do so, we often feel compelled to rebel, we then are presented with a viscious cycle of trying to enact or abide by laws to enforce intangible qualities or phenomenon….often plagued by guilt when we cannot make ourselves love or act as love when we do not feel it.
Then I wonder where is the higher behavior ? To uphold the contract for the sake of the other who has not violated and continues to live in authentic love for us, or to break the contract and there by break the other and potentially ourselves?
What is love equal to? If it is not equal to a guarantee/security….
Inthe Old Testament, God seems to come to terms that the object of His affection, Israel, whom He has chosen to love despite it’s inability to love Him back or see Him for His love for them…He relents, decides to love anyway, to sacrifice His own demand for love and respect in deference to His love for the people. In this He demonstrates love as an action and as a feeling He cannot deny which compels His action even to the point of crucifixion of Himself in the form of Christ.
He could have easily wiped us from the face of the earth and started over with beings guaranteed via programming to be loyal and love him as he deserves…no free will in such creations…and no true love either. Looks like God may be a hopeless romantic and love rush addict as much as his human creations are…but certainly with better intentions as love is truly all we can give the Commander of physics, space, matter and anti-matter…the author of all the laws of Creation.
What is love defined as from the Greek…it’s root meaning? And Hebrew, or Latin?
b: an assurance of affection <give her my love>
b (1): a beloved person : darling —often used as a term of endearment (2)British—used as an informal term of address
b: a person’s adoration of God